A Morning Nap.

Last night Angus was up puking. A lot. Bryan slept down on the couch in their room just in case Angus needed him.

This morning Angus just wanted to be held. I tried to hold him as much as I could. I reminded myself not to be annoyed. Exercise could wait, the laundry could wait, he could not.

I laid Ulysses down for his nap, picked up my big 4 year old and I held him. I sat down on my bed, snuggled him up and just held him. Within 5 minutes he was snoring away cozied up to me. I held him while he slept for a good 40 minutes. As I stared out the sunny morning window, the thought kept running through my mind "this is exactly where you need to be, this is exactly where you need to be." And instead of pushing that thought aside and focusing on my to do list,  I stopped, I breathed and I stayed. I am so glad I did. Holding his heavy sleeping body was one of the best parts of my day.

I am reminded over and over again that being able to fill a need for someone I love is one of the most fulfilling things in life.